I'd rather have a small group of like-minded people around me than virtue-signal how nice I am all the time, like you do!
And since you decided to psychoanalyze me (got a loycense for that, moyt?) here is some psychoanalysis for you.
You are projecting, you are the one that, by your own admission, was into some pretty nasty shit, so now you are overcompensating. 😂