However, that said; pursuing the pointless dream of 9-to-5 employment for almost a decade after graduating from high school nearly ruined my life, and left me with nothing to show for it. I am far, far happier having walked away from that nightmare existence, and I refuse to let someone like you drag me back into that hole with the same false promises of success that got me into it in the first place. Do you honestly think you're the first person to give me that spiel? Get over yourself; my family, countless teachers, job coaches, and total strangers all told me the same thing, and it took years of failure without a single success for me to learn that they were wrong. Your "pull yourself up by your bootstraps" spiel never worked out for me, and I'd appreciate it if you would stop stomping on my sense of self-worth by making excuses for it.
I did my best and I failed; you have no right to demand more of me. I may not be the happiest I could be, but I'm certainly happier than I used to be.
You haven't failed. You're not dead. It's literally not over till then. There is no excuse for giving up until then.
Pointless dream, you're a man standing at the bottom of a hill saying "This is impossible and pointless" while millions of people like you walk up the hill next to you. It's not impossible. It's not pointless. It works. People a thousand times worse off than you have tried and succeeded.
But no, no, I'm sure everyone else is crazy. It's not you with the broken perspective, it's not you that has the problem, it's everyone else in the whole world. No legless veteran or head injury patient has ever had it so tough, I guess.
Stop making yourself so god damn miserable, pick yourself up by your bootstraps, and get a shitty job along side a dozen people who cant spell their own names, save a little money, and start working out. Cut out your vices, you have literally no money to spend on them. Stop being a drain on the world around you. Justify your own existence or you're going to hate yourself forever, and you'll treat yourself like shit, you'll treat yourself like someone you despise.
For the love of god and your own life consider that maybe the guy who's in a spiral of despair and self-worthlessness, who posts on internet forums full of strangers about what a mess they've made of their life and how hopeless they are, ISN'T the one who's got it all figured out.
Or you can keep fishing for people to validate your Nihilistic, suicidal spiral by posting about how you're a virgin autist who's never going to be happy in public discussions about having children and starting families. It really is, as always, your call.
10 kids here... I'm done...